I Will Go for Him!

Isaiah 6

So I have heard Isaiah 6:8 practically my entire life, you know…Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us? Then said I, Here am I; send me.  I have heard it preached in many messages and I have read it in numerous devotionals, but I have never felt the meaning of these words so deeply as I did this weekend.  It just hit me, when I chose Jesus, when I committed my life to following Him, then I answered the call just like Isaiah did so long ago.  I found myself staring at these words and constantly thinking about them.  I kept on thinking…that’s me, when I said send me Lord then I decided to live my life in complete devotion to God and his calling.  So why was this moment different, why did these same words that I have read over and over again look so different now?  Well, I think the true meaning really hit me, I knew the meaning in my mind, but it was like it finally penetrated my heart.  When I said send me Lord, it doesn’t mean just to the places I want to go or to just do the things that I choose to do.  It means with all my heart, with all my soul, and with all my mind I will love Jesus Christ (Matthew 22:37).  It means it no longer matters what I want, it is what God wants me to do.  It means to die to myself so that He might live (Galatians 2:20).  It means I must decrease and He must increase (John 3:30).

I went back and read the entire chapter and if you don’t already know, all this happens in a vision that God gave Isaiah. At first Isaiah was concerned and thinking ‘oh I am in trouble---I have not always said and did the things I should have’ (of course this is me putting it in my own words), but just like God always does, He forgave his sin, renewed him, and said ‘now go tell everyone what I give you to tell’ (again in my words).  No different than what God has done for me---so why would I not want to ‘go for Him’?  Jesus Christ truly is everything to me and although I know I mess up time and again and I will never be a perfect child of God on this earth, I do with everything I know want to follow Him!  I want to speak, or in this case write, the things that he gives me and I want to do it all with the love that He gives me---a love that is so underserved, but nevertheless, given to me as freely as the air that I breathe.

This blog is dedicated to some extremely special brothers and sisters in Christ that I was so blessed to spend the weekend with---God truly used each one of them, their stories, and their love to open my eyes and my heart to the truth that I discovered in Isaiah!  With much love to my Emmaus friends!