Monday, January 16, 2012

I Love You Aunt Barbara!

Be anxious for nothing,  but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.   Philippians 4:6-7

Well to be honest I have read Luke 1:57-80 about 4 times and I just can’t get my mind wrapped around what I am reading.  You know when something else is so strongly on your mind that no matter how many times you read something it just doesn’t register.  So I will just open up and write about what is on my mind.


You see my Aunt Barbara that I mentioned last night is not doing well at all.  We actually thought we lost her today.  She suffered a heart attack and is now on a heart pump.   She is the oldest of nine children; all of them still living, and my dad’s oldest sister.  While I don’t see her that often, I still have such love for her.  Probably because she has never shown me anything less than unconditional love.  I can never remember a time when she did not greet me with a big, strong hug and a kiss on the forehead or cheek.  The same kind of hug and kiss my Grandma, her mother, would give me.  The hug and kiss that would make me not only feel a special kind of love from her, but also, somehow, from my grandma too, who I miss so much.   I have prayed constantly all day for her and for a minute I thought about what she told my mother last night and wondered about the miracle that she spoke of, but then I immediately stopped that thought process.  Of course I want her to live and of course that is what I have prayed for, but I have also added ‘if that is God’s will’ to my prayer.  I can never question God’s purpose and plan in my life, or anyone else’s life, even my Aunt Barbara’s.   I know in my mind that God knows so much more about what we need, but my heart is learning this more and more each day.  So while I want her to stay here with us, I know without a doubt, that God’s will, will be done and that no matter what happens I will never, ever doubt his love for me and my family, and I will never stop praising Him.  So again tonight I say, to God be the Glory!  I love you Aunt Barbara!

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