Such a Time!

Mark 10:32-45

So have you ever knew that God was calling you to do something and you really didn’t want to do it, so you did everything mentally to convince yourself that it is really not what God wants you to do?  I mean something big, something that involves great change for my life, something that will force me to step out of my comfort zone.  Something that when I think about it long enough my heart begins to actually ache.  The words from Esther have continued to run through my mind for a very long time now and I am constantly reminded that Esther never chose her destiny---God chose her!

For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father’s family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?”  Esther 4:14

Now I am definitely not seeking a royal position, however, I have thought many times why me?  Why can’t someone else step up and do something…why does it have to be me?  And then God reminds me…why not you?  I say I want to step out and follow the call of God, but is that just when I agree with what he is calling me to do?  So I think back to yesterday’s post---what have I left?  What have I gave up?  Am I just trying to convince myself that God has not asked me to give up something?  

Well I wrote this before I read today’s scriptures, and now after reading today’s reading I am drawn to the words of Jesus in verses 43-45… “Not so with you.  Instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be slave of all.  For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.”

So what is the connection?  Esther could have enjoyed her life and never risked her life for the sake of others.  Jesus, although he was the son of God, also made the choice of giving his life for the sake of others…those others, the ransom for many that he spoke of, was you and I. 

I don’t want to just walk through this life and live day to day in the same routine.  I want to live my life to the fullest and that doesn’t always mean to live the way I want to.  I can only live this life once and I can only live it to the fullest when I give it, completely give it to Jesus and allow him to lead the way.  I have to let go of what I am trying to hold on to and step onto the path that Jesus is shining his light on.  It may be hard to see now, but I know with each step his light will shine even brighter and I will see it a little clearer!